Around the end of the year, I always get a bit nostalgic and begin looking back over years gone by at all the Lord has led and accomplished in and around me.
I’ve pulled out several years of journals and started really looking through the mindsets I had as different years began and I’ve come across a place the Lord directed me personally that was into NOTHING.
Two years ago this January (2020) I had just vacated my position as Pastor of the United Worship Experience, where I had lead and pastored for 7 years. It was everything I had known as a pastor up to that point and the thing I was venturing into, Grand Point Ship, was still so undetermined and formless.
What I didn’t realize at the time was that the Lord had led me into a sort of wilderness that become a part of the development of who I would become as a future pastor.
On January 25th of that year, I wrote in my journal that I was sitting at Long Pine Reservoir. Not a very good time to go to the lake! It was a beautiful site to see, if memory serves me right. It was a frozen expanse of winter that stretched across the entire lake.
What I was realizing, for one of the first times in my life was the value of nothing.
It’s not that I had nothing to do, no, I still had a very full schedule to keep with development. What I found was a new kind of something. The Lord was working me into becoming a new and different kind of person. He was working something into me through this frozen winter that I had ever experienced before. I couldn’t have learned it any other way than by having time and space between titles and roles.
I learned during that season was that roles should not be our most definitive description.
Think about that.
When you meet someone, one of their first questions is inevitable- What do you do for work? So it’s also inevitable that when that description changes, our lives become so much more uneasy.
I was no longer the Pastor of the United Worship Experience and that made me nervous. I didn’t know what was coming or what to expect.
I look back on that season now with a sense of gratitude. Now almost two years later and having seen all the Lord had planned, I’m grateful for my wilderness.
Have you ever gone through a wilderness season before? Maybe you didn’t even realize that’s what it was, but now in seeing this, it’s becoming a bit clearer that may have been what you were facing. Talk about it, what did you learn? What did you hate at the time and what have you come to love because of it?