Experience, Family, Marriage, Random

Meager Beginnings

Sixteen years ago this summer, Crystal and I began our lives together. Neither of us can believe it’s been that long since we met and married.

This summer for our vacation we passed through the city of our first home. It’s been years since we’ve been here! We used to pass this way frequently when we were missionaries, but those days are long since passed.

As we entered Jacksonville, FL a wave of emotions began to pass over us and a flood of memories from our early years began build. There were so many experiences that took place in this town.

So to get a bit nostalgic with our crew of 5, we took them past our first apartment and the part of town we used to live in.
To them, it was a unwelcomed distraction from their current Disney movie selection. They sort of rubbed their blood shot eyes as they looked up and grunted with a half-hearted acknowledgement as Crystal and I revisited a thousand memories that took place on College Street in Jacksonville. We were excited to see that the area has improved since the days when it was a drug-infested hotbed of illegal activity! It’s actually a descent place to call home now! Let me just say, we lived in the hood and it was sketchy at best.

Oh those were the days! We’d get home from our classes at Trinity Baptist College and have about 3 hours before our work schedules began. We’d throw together some Tuna because that’s all we could afford in those days, and take a short walk to the banks of the St. Johns River where we’d enjoy a picnic. We did this so often that memory is coterized in our minds and tuna takes us on a journey down memory lane even at its smell.

We had next to nothing during that season of life, but for some reason we look back with such fondness at the time we spent in that very small, one-bedroom apartment. It was ours and we were each others and there was just nothing better in the world.

Those days make me grateful for the Lord has brought us now. I always get a little fearful when I hear young couples talking about getting more. More stuff, more space, more…everything. We were that way too at a time, but the most important thing we learned over the years since was the reality that life was more about purpose than pleasure. She and I had nothing, but we had an intense purpose that fill our minds and hearts with a pleasure that we’d never before known.

How did your story begin? Where were the days of our meager beginnings?

More than that, what’s your purpose? The God-given purpose of your heart is more than everything and if you struggle to define that purpose, no physical thing will ever fill its void.

Biblical Living, Family, Marriage

The Power of a Praying Husband— The Magic Pill

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It is completely impossible for you to be the husband you wife needs you to be…

I see so many guys who are married or soon to be and they are destined for failure.

It won’t be through an affair.

It won’t happen because of neglect or abuse.

They’re not cheaters.

They’re not bad providers.

What I see today is that men are not prayer warriors.

We have this illusion that men are inherently capable of being everything a wife needs him to be. There’s a couple lies found in this. First Ladies, let me pop that balloon by saying, he’s not perfect and is never going to be. The perfection you are looking for in your relationship can only be found in Jesus.

The only Savior you are going to find in your life is in Christ. Stop making your husband become your everything, holding him to a standard of excellence that he can never complete in you.
Jesus came to die so that you could be saved and safe, your husband can never compete with that!

Guys, I want to give you some very powerful marriage enhancing material today. It’s that magic pill you are looking for to make your marriage wild again.

Are you interested?

Shout it louder!


Paul wrote in Ephesians 5,

“Husbands, you are to demonstrate love for your wives with the same tender devotion that Christ demonstrated to us, his bride. For he died for us, sacrificing himself to make us holy and pure, cleansing us through the showering of the pure water of the Word of God. All that he does in us is designed to make us a mature church for his pleasure, until we become a source of praise to him—glorious and radiant, beautiful and holy, without fault or flaw. Husbands have the obligation of loving and caring for their wives the same way they love and care for their own bodies, for to love your wife is to love your own self.” ‭‭Ephesians‬ ‭5:25-28‬ ‭TPT‬‬

There are a lot of things in life that I have discovered I am incapable of. How about you, what do you suck at? Be honest with yourself. If you’re anything like me, there’s a lot of things that you would love to think you excel at but you just don’t.

In my mind, I am incredible at building. I can fix, literally, anything.
Some of you, it’s all about sports. You can visualize yourself as an incredible QB. When it comes to basketball, you are MJ.

But reality is, most things I try to fix, end up needing to be “re-fixed”.

And when it comes to your being a QB, your spiral just isn’t quite that awesome and Tom Brady is not really that nervous about your assuming his position.

The same thing is true when it comes to your marriage. Your best decision would be today, to swallow this magic pill of prayer and decide that every day you are going to pray asking God to love your wife through you.

It’s amazing what can happen when you begin to do this. There’s something that visibly changes in your composure.

I remember the first time I tried this, Crystal, my wife, asked me what I was doing that was making things so different. I told her that I was praying those words. She can now point out the days that I’ve prayed that prayer….and the days that I have not.

I can tell you this bro. The marriage you have right now, is the marriage that God intends for you to keep. She’s not flawed, you’re just not praying and becoming the husband/leader God intended for you to be.

Don’t get hung up on the “what if’s” and “I don’t know how’s”, all you need to worry about today is that simple prayer, “God, love her through me today.”

Start praying those words everyday, every morning when you wake up, utter those words before you get out of bed. Before you know it, that will be the start of longer sentences and paragraphs you are praying about your wife. You’ll start praying for her protection. You’ll pray that God will guard her heart and mind as she wrestles through the incredible difficulties of being a mom, a wife, an employee(r), and the thousand other things that come rushing at her mind.
And you’ll notice that you’ve become incredibly different also. You’ll find a genuine concern over her that you’ve not seen before. And it’s all because God is now loving this woman through you with a love that is so far beyond your capacity.

It’s time to fill your prescription of this magic pill.


The 100/100 Principle

Have you ever seen the movie, Jerry Maguire? Such a classic movie featuring Tom Cruise and Renee Zellweger. I don’t know how you feel about either of those actors, but I’m a fan of the Mission Impossible Series and someone once told me I look like Tom Cruise, so I have that working for me…or against me. Watch the trailer if you want to know what the movie is about, but the one scene that has become so iconic is that “you complete me” scene in the middle of the movie. You know the one where she interrupts him with, you had me at hello. Yep this is that movie!

I always struggled with that concept, you complete me. It sounds so wonderfully fantastic and amazing. Like something that should be woven into the vows of every wedding. That is, until you actually consider the ramifications of being the one who completes.

Marriage is such an incredibly difficult thing to master. Don’t get me wrong, it’s also the most amazing thing to be a part of as well. Never for a day in my life would I want to continue without my wife, best-friend (with snacks), cheerleader. We are just too good together! I make her better, she makes me best. But neither of us completes the other! We know that and we knew that when we got married and neither of us holds each other to the standard of expectation that we will complete each other. Sure the times without her feel incomplete. When it’s time to celebrate in life, she’s the first one I want to celebrate with. When trouble comes, she’s the one I want to face it with and when we are forced to face those things alone, they feel incomplete.

But the reality is the Lord is the completion of every marriage. When it comes to marriage, two halves do not make a whole. Not in any sense! Two broken people, with the Lord, make a whole marriage.

Every marriage is going to face stress. There will come a time in your marriage when one of you is completely incapacitated and the entire workings of your life will be shouldered by one person. Honestly, this is where most marriages break because they didn’t sign up for the weight of an entire life of responsibility.

They only signed up for 50% of it.

They vowed to commit to staying faithful ONLY if the other did first.

They vowed that for better or for worse but never took into account that worst may actually happen.

I want to have a best marriage. One of legends. Crystal and I want to create a lineage so great that our great-grandkids look to us with admiration, but to do that requires a very poignant understand…that neither of us will be the completing factor. That’s the Lord’s position and we will pursue him for that–together.

We have this joke that we’ve held on to since our dating days. Our goal is to get to play in a sandbox when we’re 80. Every once in a while, you’ll hear us say that phrase 80 in the sandbox. It’s just a simple reminder that we are in this for life, no matter what happens or becomes. There will be times that she has to carry 100% of our life, and then there will be times that I have to do the same. No one looks for those moments, no one likes them. They push you to the very limits of our sanity, but when we make it to 80 and can look back over all the moments that we made it through!? They will all have been worth it.

So Crystal, You do not complete me.

And I will not expect you to.


The Power of a Praying Husband — The Value of a Great Wife

We’ve been married for 15 years this year. How is that possible!? The other day Crystal and I reminisced about some of our early days in marriage and the fun we had. We remembered some of our very tough days as well. They were so frequent! We were trying so hard to gain any semblance of momentum only to be defeated. One step forward, two steps back was our lifestyle. But we loved it! We made it and here we are today with a lot to show for it.